It is the summer of 1982. Girishyk.
There is an exchange of fire in the streets.
I snuggled up to a duval (a fence made of clay, very solid). Its dry,
shaggy body was indifferent to my moves. The duval was made of soil, on which it was located fast and
confidently. The bullets, which were nailed to it by "dukh" (mudjahed) didn't influence its
solidity. I had the same kind of duval on the right side of me. It extended for a few
dozen metres both ways.
We were stuck on the T-shaped cross-road, which was exposed to conscientious sniper fire.
The sniper had taken up position inside a small brick building, protruding from the wall
of duval.
The position allowed him to shoot very accurately and safely. A machine
gunner, taking up position on the roof of the house, surrounded by damned duval, proceeded
to consider the situation calmly and soberly. His machine gun fired at the top of the
duval with enviable constancy. He didn't give us a chance to climb over the clay wall and
get inside the yard. Between them they had us pinned down. I tried to snuggle up to the
duval as closely as possible. The sniper didn't allow me to get out of that clay "pen
case" and the machine gunner, from the top of his position, could reach the opposite
side of the street. I was cursing myself for
a hurry. We managed to move through almost the whole block, without any resistance until we reached that
damned clay wall.
Suddenly Irgashev ran round a corner, following my mistake. Trying to
combine speed and carelessness he was turning his head this way and that. He didnt see me in time. He was already in
the middle of the street when I called to him "Legs!!!!". Irgashev hit the
ground as he was trained to. Bullets from the machine gunner drew a dust line on the duval
across the chest level of Uzbek. I cannot say what kind of cotton-grower the country would
lose, but I can confirm even whilst being tortured with condensed milk (sometimes it was too much
condensed milk in soldiers food) that he was one of the best out of the "valorous" sons of the
Uzbekistan, littered
Soviet Army. Covered with a cloud of dust, from the machine gun fire and his own fall,
Irgashev rolled over in leaps and bounds to the opposite wall. I was pleased to see him,
but it didn't improve our, now mutual, situation. The machine gun and my scream stopped
the rest of group in the nick of time. Irgashev was the last of the group to follow me.
Not hiding the temper we called up with the guys over separated us corner. The delay
caused by this delay was definitely lasted too long.
The decision to be made was clear. The sniper and the machine gunner
were separated by the yard. The machine gunner's position didn't allow him to control the
yard or the house. The house may have been mined. The only way forward was to jump over
the duval and throw ourselves across the yard. We could go back and leave the house behind
or we could wait for another group. We could just sit in the town park, sipping beer and
reading newspapers about another friendship park, planted on the friendly Afghan soil.
Guys successfully threw us a bag of grenades. We agreed that after a volley of two "flies"(grenade cup discharge) to a jut, were the gunner was located, we would somehow get
our bodies over the duval, drop and run across the yard, demolish both the machine gunner
and sniper with the hand grenades. And all that we planned we would do with the fully
agreement of enemies. "Maradona" (real name Marupov), the slim Uzbek, looks like
SVD (Soviet sniper
rifle), which he
always carried like a pastoral staff, began to fire at the machine gunner. But we still
got much more machine gun's bullets in the air.
We snuggled as close as possible to the duval, having the grenades
ready. We were lying on our sides, feeling the solidity of the duval with our stomachs.
Turning my head I could see the soles of Irgashev's boots. Suddenly he turned his head and
looked at me. The squinting glance from his narrow black eyes, broad face spotted with the
dust under nose was amusing seen as it was - with a background of worn soles. I couldn't resist a smile. Irgashev took the
relay-race with the gladness and smiled back. The skin on his cheek-bone was so strained
that sometimes I began to think by what reserve he could manage to strain his mouth in
white-teeth smile. Apparently when his mouth was closing, some other whole was opening on
his body and in the vice versa. In our situation when our buttocks were tighten with the
grip of fear, he could allow himself to do it.
Guys made everything very beautiful. At the same time, two guys ran
round the corner to the other side of the street. Misha Shikunov and Pasha Morozov. The
first hit the ground at the middle of the street (as far away as possible from the corner) almost lying on the ground, the
second on his knees, being two metres
behind Misha., shoot volley to the jut with the sniper. Almost at the same time we threw grenades over the duval. I,
pushed off Irgashev's back, flew over the clay fence. Irgashev was supposed to be throwing
over by Misha and Pasha.
I didnt fall as I planned. I landed on all fours and hurt my
knee. I used the pause between the last machine gun burst and the shooting of
"Maradona" to race to the house.
My back was supposed to be covered by Irgashev who was somewhere behind
me. Trying to keep the momentum from the fall to the ground, I moved over the first part
of the way on all fours. Trying to stand up and having the Kalashnikov gun in the proper
position at last, I rushed the door of the house. Breaking through the weak doors I
overshot my target by a meter and a half and ran into something soft yet resistant.
The force of impact was so strong that I flew back opening the door
with my head. From the ground I saw with fear a huge bearded Afghan, wearing the
traditional baggy trousers, waist and turban, standing a metre away from me. While I tried
to get my Kalashnikov ready to shoot, the giant was standing calmly with his gun in one
hand and, I don't know why, rubbing his forehead with the other. I heard Irgashev'. I saw
"dukh" raising the gun. I saw him look at me first, lying down near his feet, then at Iragshev, judging the
situation. He coolly took a step back inside the house .I couldn't say about myself that I was as cool as him. I
managed a wild burst of fire from my Kalashnikov . Keeping my back on the ground I carried
on firing, sending bullets into the chest of bearded giant. I saw lead pierce his body,
throwing him towards the wall.
Being a sergeant whose length of service cannot be described as
"just from the plane" (almost
all officers and soldier were delivered to and from Afghanistan by planes) I loaded tracer bullets as each third shell in the magazine. This helped to aim
at the target and to correct fire. And now the bright yellow line, like a thin nail,
pierced the "dukh's" body, throwing him to the opposite wall. As the last shell
was free of its lethal stuffing, the fire line broke, cutting off the lethal stream. The
body, filled with lead, became limp, the bearded man's knees bent. I could see fireworks
on his chest: tracer bullets, stuck in his body. Like a spark, the last tracer bullet
pierced in falling body. Irgashev, not giving me time to get to my feet, flew over me and
rushed into the house, to the staircase, leading to the roof. I crawled to the house,
expecting a sniper's attack. But the door inside the yard still was closed. Having changed
the magazine I kept the gun aimed. Having turned head back I saw the dead man next to me.
He laid near the opposite wall, with one of his legs screwed under him in unnatural way. I
aw smoke from his stomach and heard a disgusting hissing - the tracer bullets were cooling in the dead body.
Having used the silence of the sniper, our guys rushed the yard over
the duval, covered from the opposite roof by "Maradona" They moved to different
corners of the yard, looking for shelters, as they were trained. "Dukh's" grenade, thrown from the roof with the
delay couldn't hurt anybody. The answer was a few grenades, thrown from the yard, exposed on the roof. I was
still standing over killed "dukh", when Pasha Morozov, not even trying to hide
his temper, caused by my delay, ran from behind me. He turned the dead body, took a "vest" (a special construction of belts and pockets wearing on
a bullet proof jackets for carrying magazines) and threw it to
the corner of the house with anger. I took the gun of the dead "dukh". It was a Chinese Kalashnikov, its cover was
polished almost white. The butt was broken in slivers by my bullets. I automatically
clicked the shutter. A shell fell down on the floor, near my feet. I picked it up and put
in a pocket. To think, all my life, all my 18 years, filled with gladness and
disappointment was inside this small piece of metal. The same bullet shot from my gun,
freed the heart of that Afghan from hate.
Everything was over. The machine gunner leaped down from the roof to
the garden, located behind the house. But that day Allah had chosen, between the two
Moslems who had an equal chance to die that day, the machine gunner - he sprained his leg
leaping down on the mild soil of the garden. Our cotton-grower calmly nailed the poor guy to his native ground with short
bursts of fire.
The building from which the sniper forced me and Irgashe to eat dust,
was just an ordinary toilet. The floor was covered with the spent shells from the
automatic rifle, which we couldn't find. There were neat embrasures in the walls. Looking
out one of them I saw the street we were lying in just few minutes ago. That moment I
understood that I had
to become a sack with bones as the position
was perfect. The guys couldn't find the sniper. Bombarding the
toilet with grenades the group left the house. We met our politic officer right round the corner. All we got
were a few rude words as an answers to our embarrassed explanations.
We were the cause the delay for our company. Our the task was just to reach the established point and lock the circle. Just
that.
Later, recalling that day, I often wondered if that sniper
from the toilet remained alive?
... I leaned against the wall of the toilet, glancing down the street
through the embrasure. Suddenly I heard a splash beneath me, in the deep recess of the pit
. I came to the edge of the very narrow pit very carefully and saw nothing, but as I
unwittingly moved back I saw him, or if to be more exact his body. He was hanging, caught
on something. Apparently understanding that he could be seen, the sniper moved to the right side with
the convulsive movements. Having seen the shake of his body I understood he would not be
able to hang that way for a long time. And I gave him a chance, as he did for me there, while I was in the street ...
When I knew how easily one can die I can also say that one can live
easily too. But a difficult death doesn't mean an easy life and a difficult life does not
necessarily lead to an easy death. Though who can say, who that day was easier for. Maybe,
the chance, given to the marksman was the most difficult trial for him. Maybe my kindness
generated evil and hate in his heart, as if it was generated in my heart by the
sluggishness of killed "dukh".
In our victory we just forgot that somebody's fault was the basis for
victory, somebody's loss self-control. The parade of our victories turns into the hospital
round of other's defeats and sacrifices after a number of years.
The quarter to beaten in Asia was always considered as the sign of
weakness,on the other hand, an effort on
yourself was considered as the right sign of presence of will.
I thought that time, if we defeat ourselves, stopping to be a slave of
own body, whose mistake is the base for our victory, who has
lost a chance, found by us? Apparently everybody has to pay. If not today so tomorrow.
That war went on and I lost both legs.
Blown up by the anti-infantry
Italian land mine (life later introduced me to a man who stated proudly that he was the
officer of the sixth department, but before
was working as a combat engineer in Kunduz. I was asked a question, how
could I get into such a
trouble, I answered about the anti-infantry Italian land mine, he said
, showing his understanding
, as though he had seen
many of such mines (!?). I added,
- LWith the ropes instead of
handles³. I knew
already who was seating in front of me, and that he didn't care of my story. He
was the same combat engineer as I was a drummer, and the only thing he
needed to know was the information about those who was involved in
LAfghan deals³
).
Meanwhile I was recovering on the hospital bed after being injured by
an explosive of thirty grams that had been packed into a stiff shell, with a diameter
about eight and a height of about three centimetres. I was looking for the enemy
. The enemy to fight with whom I had
to use my last power, who I could revenge upon for my blowing up
. And finally I found him - it was
myself, fatten on the hospital food, bathing if the shine of glory, intoxicated by the
calmness and silence of peace life. I began a
new war.
I won that war. That guy,
who was looking at his artificial limbs, on which he ha
d if not to pilot a plane but to
dance for sure (according to country traditions (all Soviet children was taught by a
book about a Soviet pilot
of the Second World War, whose aircraft was
brought down by Germans, who was wounded and had to crawled back to Soviet side for 18
days, in the winter time, without a food. He lost both legs but recovered and returned to
the air forces again and fought against Germans until the end of the war))
, with fear luckily
died together with his horse-splint artificial limbs model of 1911
year. He died of moral blows
from the sergeant of Kandagar
brigade. That sergeant stroke
him to death. The sergant
was coming in
the worst moments, when he had to choose between what need to do and what is easier to do.
What fights were there!!! It was real war inside of me and the sergeant won. He was
forceful and straight forward
in his wishes. His arguments were simple and obvious: "Why are
you fucking around yourself? Don't
disgrace the brigade! Why you, fucking bustard, survived? That's all you are able to do?
Can you do it like that? If you cannot get off..." The most powerful argument
I found
while watching
an action movie where the hero
stated: "... Do you think I need all this -
a car, a
villa, girls? The only thing I need is
a pasteboard box
, a
bench in a
park and a rubber girl
- that is what I have
to claim the
community!" "What can you claim
them?" - asked me my sergeant.
That day the legless graduate of the Institute, the husband of
a wife
, who waited for him
to come home from the war, the son
who didn't vindicate the hopes of his parents, the friend of his friends and enemy of his
enemies died in peace. The sergeant L
buried³ him
very unpretentiously with the words: "You lost you
r war, son".
The sergeant got his legacy:
higher education,
good health, adjusted life, Otto
Bocks
(designer of artificial limbs)
artificial limbs, the car, the
garage, old enemies, old friends, old problems and unsolved questions.
He dealt with all of it very calmly. He refused part of
the legacy immediately, the rest has
gone itself. When I got all my property in the black bag, which I had after ruining my
family and after the crash of my family fortunes, he stated to me proudly: "One need
to have two things in life - courage and passion. Courage - to change
an own life and passion to execute
the dream. You have chance to leave this boat, soldier." I decided to stay and I have
no regrets about taking part in the fraud called life. Maybe
I died much earlier than that
legless student who died o
f fear when he stumbled on the bearded man?
It seems that
everybody can see the sign on m
y T-shirt: "Welcome to Kandagar brigade Lsculls³
!!!"